clay heart, unfired clay, photographed in the red sunset light, coming through the windows of my studio, 2020

how to
transcribe, translate, transpose, transfigure mental images, feelings built in memories, blurry thoughts, physical sensations, attractivity and disgust, impressions burried inside,
into
matter, touch, volumes, textures, wrinkles and lumps, brightness and shadows, marks and erasure, gestures, cuts,

the interactions between all parts of my body and the outside?